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If Only I Could Tell You

by Hannah Beckerman

Book Club Recommendations Books of the Month Family Drama Relationship Stories Star Books

LoveReading View on If Only I Could Tell You

A special and beautiful book to fall completely and irretrievably in love with. Audrey can not understand why her two daughters are estranged, or why her granddaughters have never met. She is determined to reunite her family, however at the heart of the problem is a secret that has been kept for 30 years. Either Audrey, Jess, or Lily head each chapter and while travelling forward over several months, they also revisit the past. Hannah Beckerman allows secrets to hover, creating an energy that weaves through the story, suggesting, cajoling, calling to past events. The different view points collide and sometimes splinter, which left my thoughts testing and questioning possibilities. I found such strength and beauty in the characters, I think they will remain with me for some time. If Only I Could Tell You, is a heartbreaking, truly fabulous read, you may well sob, but believe me, it is worth it!

Liz Robinson

If Only I Could Tell You Synopsis


Audrey's family has fallen apart. Her two grown-up daughters, Jess and Lily, are estranged, and her two teenage granddaughters have never been allowed to meet. A secret that echoes back thirty years has splintered the family in two, but is also the one thing keeping them connected.

As tensions reach breaking point, the irrevocable choice that one of them made all those years ago is about to surface. After years of secrets and silence, how can one broken family find their way back to each other? 

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If Only I Could Tell You Press Reviews

Toxic friendship [is] beautifully explored in Hannah Beckerman's If Only I Could Tell You - Marie Claire

Lyrical and deeply emotional -- Katy Regan

A brave depiction of a family torn apart -- Laura Barnett

A wise and tender tale of a family divided...compelling from the first page to the last -- Emylia Hall

Utterly heartbreaking and beautifully written -- Libby Page

Profoundly beautiful and heartbreaking in turn -- Kate Hamer

[An] incredibly moving, poignant book...It will have you in floods of tears -- Louise O'Neill

Totally engrossing, achingly sad and so perceptive -- Kate Eberlen

An intricately tender novel about secrets and silence -- Julie Cohen

A tender, moving portrait of three women's lives... If Only I Could Tell You broke my heart -- Rosie Walsh, author of The Man Who Didn't Call

I pure loved it! Compelling and deeply moving -- Marian Keyes

Engaging, clever, and wonderfully satisfying . . . storytelling at its finest -- Kate Mosse

Wonderful . . . I loved it to bits -- Joanna Cannon

A tender portrait of family lives, losses and secrets -- Clare Mackintosh

Utterly compelling and completely heart-breaking -- Ruth Hogan

A beautiful tale... Heartbreaking and uplifting -- Ruth Jones

I loved it - Jojo Moyes

A tender and heartbreaking second novel - Daily Mail

Emotionally-charged and superbly crafted . . . For all its emotional intensity and heartbreaking themes, Beckerman's compelling, compassionate novel delivers ultimately life-affirming and uplifting messages with eloquence, elegance and an acute understanding of the delicate but unbreakable bonds of family - Lancashire Post

A tender story - Sunday Mirror

A compelling yet tender tale - Woman & Home

A powerful novel about grief, guilt and...secrets - Sunday Express

Tense, moving and tender - Sun on Sunday

A tender story that will have you reaching for tissues - PRIMA

Hot reads: If Only I Could Tell You really tugs the heartstrings - Good Housekeeping

Life-affirming - Red

Tender, heartbreaking and utterly beautiful - Psychologies

A must-read. An absorbing tale of long-buried family secrets, grief and guilt with a midpoint twist that changes everything - Sunday Express Magazine

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ISBN: 9781409177326
Publication date: 22/08/2019
Publisher: Orion (an Imprint of The Orion Publishing Group Ltd ) an imprint of Orion Publishing Co
Format: Paperback

Book Information

ISBN: 9781409177326
Publication date: 22nd August 2019
Author: Hannah Beckerman
Publisher: Orion (an Imprint of The Orion Publishing Group Ltd ) an imprint of Orion Publishing Co
Format: Paperback
Pagination: 368 pages
Genres: Book Club Recommendations, Books of the Month, Family Drama, Relationship Stories, Star Books,
Categories: Modern & contemporary fiction (post c 1945),

About Hannah Beckerman

Hannah Beckerman is a former TV and film producer living in London. The Dead Wife's Handbook is her first novel

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