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How I Lost You

by Jenny Blackhurst

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LoveReading View on How I Lost You

May 2015 Debut of the Month.

Emma, who once was Susan, has served time in a psychiatric unit for murdering her twelve week old baby.  She has no memory of her crime but since police, family and her doctor tell her she committed the crime she believes them.  Now released with her new identity she received a photo of a toddler and this sets up a series of flashbacks involving a group of university friends.  They make little sense initially but then slowly the whole begins to come together making very nasty sense indeed.  You need to concentrate and follow all the threads carefully to a most rewarding conclusion.  Excellent. ~ Sarah Broadhurst

Sarah Broadhurst

How I Lost You Synopsis

A brilliant debut psychological crime novel, for fans of THE WICKED GIRLS. They told her she killed her son. She served her time. But what if they lied? I have no memory of what happened but I was told I killed my son. And you believe what your loved ones, your doctor and the police tell you, don't you? My name is Emma Cartwright. Three years ago I was Susan Webster, and I murdered my twelve-week-old son Dylan. I was sent to Oakdale Psychiatric Institute for my crime, and four weeks ago I was released early on parole with a new identity, address and a chance to rebuild my tattered life. This morning, I received an envelope addressed to Susan Webster. Inside it was a photograph of a toddler called Dylan. Now I am questioning everything I believe because if I have no memory of the event, how can I truly believe he's dead? If there was the smallest chance your son was alive, what would you do to get him back? A compulsive, thought-provoking and thrilling novel from a fantastic new talent.

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How I Lost You Reader Reviews

In addition to our Lovereading expert opinion some of our Lovereading Reader Review Panel were also lucky enough to read and review this title.  You can read their full reviews by clicking here.

  • Michelle Hodson - 'This book set off at a fast pace and kept me enthralled until the very end, when all is revealed.  This is a wonderful debut novel with well rounded characters...'
  • Doreen McKeown - 'I found this book a real page-turner...the whole thing did make for a gripping story, and one which gave me a few late nights!'
  • Liz Stein - 'An ambitiously convoluted plot, with an array of characters, this book will keep you gripped from the first page till the end.'
  • Mollie Mayson-Simpson - 'Is this conclusion a little far-fetched and unlikely?  Some readers might think so, but I urge them to 'suspend their disbelief' and go with it.'
  • Sheila Dale - 'Well written and a great debut novel. I read this book in a couple of days as there is a great compulsion to see what happens next.'
  • Emma Barton - 'The book keeps you guessing about the truth and who can be trusted, but towards the last part it becomes quite ridiculous and unbelievable.'
  • Tanya Thurling - 'I finished this book in two evenings. I literally could not put it down and did the 'just one more chapter' thing a lot. It charges along from the very beginning.'
  • Suzanne Marsh - 'Jenny Blackhurst is a fantastic new talent. I will most certainly be looking out for her next novel.'
  • Alison Bisping - 'Wow!  What a book.  It was a definite page turner and I struggled to put it down.'
  • Ann Alderton - 'An intriguing psychological thriller with multiple twists...which draws the reader in from the start with its dramatic storyline of a mother convicted of killing her baby son.'
  • Reba Khatun - 'A great book.  Jenny Blackhurst is an author to watch.  What a brilliant read!  I was hooked from the blurb.'
  • Margaret Madden - 'A psychological thriller which will make you question who you should trust. A clever debut with plenty of twists and turns...'
  • Ian Harvey-Brown - 'Overall I was disappointed with this book. To me the title promised more than the book actually delivered.' 
  • Sian Spinney - 'I took a while to get in to the story but it soon became a book I couldn't put down.'

The Good Book Guide Review

Emma Cartwright was a different person three years previously, when her name was Susan Webster. Under that identity, she murdered her twelve-week-old son Dylan and was sent to Oakdale psychiatric Institute for her crime. Released on parole early and granted a new identity and address, she is attempting to rebuild her life. Then an envelope arrives addressed to the name she no longer uses, with a photograph of a child called Dylan. Is her son, in fact, still alive? This is the intriguing premise of a novel that is very much in the idiom currently ruling the roost in crime fiction – the dark secrets hiding within families and individuals, rather than being detective-based. It is a real winner.

How I Lost You Press Reviews

'As twisted as a mountain road, Blackhurst's fast-moving and unputdownable debut will keep you glued to your seat' -- Alex Marwood


'Utterly gripping - brilliant debut!' -- Clare Mackintosh author of I LET YOU GO


'An absolute and complete page turner that had me completely enthralled ... Definitely highly recommended for fans of psychological thrillers'

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ISBN: 9781472218964
Publication date: 23/04/2015
Publisher: Headline Book Publishing an imprint of Headline Publishing Group
Format: Paperback

Book Information

ISBN: 9781472218964
Publication date: 23rd April 2015
Author: Jenny Blackhurst
Publisher: Headline Book Publishing an imprint of Headline Publishing Group
Format: Paperback
Pagination: 368 pages
Genres: Reader Reviewed Books, Crime / Mystery, Debuts of the Month, eBook Favourites, Family Drama, Thriller / Suspense,
Categories: Crime & mystery,

About Jenny Blackhurst

Jenny Blackhurst grew up in Shropshire where she still lives with her husband and children. Growing up she spent hours reading and talking about crime novels - writing her own seemed like natural progression. Inspired by the emotions she felt around her own son's birth, How I Lost You is Jenny's thrilling debut crime novel.

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