Audiobooks by K.A. Merikan

Not Like Other Boys: gay bully romance Audiobook

"Lose an eye. Win a boyfriend. Ethan. Taxidermist. Goth weirdo. Can’t wait to be done with high school. Ethan is a young artist-entrepreneur with a love for quirky taxidermy. Roadkill is so much better than people. By the end of high school, all he wants is to develop his business, yet all his parents want is for him to go to law school. That is more than enough of a problem for Ethan, so any kind of love life is out of the question. That is until Robert Hunter, the quarterback of the football team, comes crashing into him. Literally. Robert. Quarterback. In the closet. More than meets the eye. Robert is the popular kid, the quarterback on his way to med school. He’s gay, but not exactly coming out since he doesn’t like to stir the pot. One night, spurred on by too much booze, he ends up causing irreversible harm to Ethan, the school’s weirdo. The aftermath. Robert will do anything to avoid charges for what he’s done, but when Ethan makes an indecent demand in return for his silence, Robert might just be in way over his head. For Ethan, it’s a simple act of revenge on a bully, but when Robert turns out to be not-so-straight, their arrangement gets complicated all too fast. *** Themes: First love, fitting in, entrepreneurship, disability, high school, jock/goth, taxidermy, artist, coming out, becoming an adult, enemies to lovers, hurt/comfort Genre: New Adult M/M romance Length: ~ 90,000 words (Standalone novel, no cliffhanger.) WARNING: Contains steamy, passionate scenes, violent injury, themes of bullying, and a morally ambiguous proposition (This book was formerly published as ‘Diary of a Teenage Taxidermist’)"

K.A. Merikan (Author), Tyler Kent (Narrator)

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Unlovable Bastard: Gay romance

"'“This is not the night you die.” After years of working for a loan shark, Robert is done with blood and violence. All he has to show for it is a bag of money and a lifetime of regrets. There’s no other way out of his line of work than in a body bag. So Robert decides to die. But on the night he chooses to seal his own fate, destiny offers him a chance at redemption. When Robert saves a handsome young escort from a terrible death, he has no idea he is setting in motion much more than one last attempt at proving that inside the hardened shell, he is a decent human being. Charming, quick-witted, and full of smiles, Nathan is all Robert could dream of. He’s also ready to fall into the arms of his gruff protector. Robert, on the other hand, has never been with a man and will first need to fight his own demons if he is to accept that his whole being wants to make Nathan his. With his former boss hunting them both, time is ticking, and Robert might just not get the chance to decide before it’s too late. More importantly though, Robert will stop at nothing to protect the man who’s made him feel alive again, the man who is the only thing between him and the abyss. *** “I never had to think much about death before, but I did yesterday. I thought I would die. In a hole. Covered with dirt. Suffocate underground. But then you saved me.” *** Themes: enemies to lovers, protector, cruelty, homophobia, crime, self-discovery, family conflict, age gap, escort, self-hate, first time, revenge, on the run Genre: Dark, gritty, M/M contemporary romance"

K.A. Merikan (Author), Nathan Kelly (Narrator)

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Wrong Side of the Tracks 1-5 Audio Bundle: gay romance

"This audio box set contains all five books of the Wrong Side of the Tracks series. BOOK 1- SCUM Shane. Ex-con. No-good bastard. Scum. Rosen. Trust fund boy. Virgin. Sucker. Shane is straight out of prison, and has one goal only—to wreck everything dear to the man who put him behind bars. And number one on that list is Rosen, Ed Beck’s son. Shane’s plan is to incriminate the boy, but when the dreamy blue eyes meet his, Shane can think of a hundred other ways to ruin Rosen right under his father’s nose. BOOK 2 - PRIMAL Jag. Uninhibited. Possessive. Walks on the wild side. Dane. Gentle giant. Monster lover. Plays it safe. BOOK 3 - DICKHEAD Hammer. Enforcer for the Demon Brethren MC. Sociopath. Butcher. Weapon of choice: Sledgehammer Dex. Shameless. Perpetually horny. No impulse control. Weapon of choice: Dumb jokes BOOK 4 - GRIND Ezra. Escort. Cynical. Hunted by a killer. Needs a man capable of anything. Frank. Client. Protective. Loyal. Wants to forget his violent past. BOOK 5 - WANTED Liver. F*ckboy extraordinaire. Race car driver. Cocky. Horny. Would kill for his best friend. Knox. Kickboxer with a chip on his shoulder and a heart condition. Crybaby. Would get rid of a body for his best friend. Both: Wanted for questioning in connection to a murder. Both: Possibly-maybe in love with each other and too dumb to see it."

K.A. Merikan (Author), Nathan Kelly (Narrator)

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Feel My Pain: gay romance

"Two enemies cursed to feel each other’s pain. Zane. “I will burn your life to the ground.” Roach. “I’m a cockroach. I’ll survive.” Two years ago, the Rabid Hyenas MC ripped Zane apart like a pack of starving wolves. But he’s not only a survivor, he took revenge that same night. Turns out, one of the bikers is still alive, and as long as that’s the case, Zane will not know peace. Especially since Roach is the dirtbag who caused all the mayhem in the first place. When an act of revenge meant to close that chapter of Zane’s life takes a shocking turn, all hell breaks loose. Roach’s pain is his. When Roach bleeds, he does. When Zane suffers, Roach screams. So until Zane can figure out how to lift the curse and kill Roach, he’s stuck caring for the dumbass who drinks too much, works like a dog, and hasn’t moved on an inch since he lost his motorcycle club. But Roach has other plans for the man twisting his miserable life around. For him, Zane is hope, lust, and love combined, so Roach will gladly stay bound to him forever. Even if it kills them. Dirty, dark, and delicious, “Feel My Pain” is a gritty M/M dark romance novel with magical elements and a happy ending. Prepare for violence, intense jealousy, and scorching hot, emotional, explicit scenes and find out if those two broken men can find peace in each other. POSSIBLE SPOILERS: Themes: Enemies to lovers, forced proximity, magical bond, revenge, poverty, disability, small town, vulnerability, versatile lovers Length: ~110,000 words (Standalone novel) WARNING: This story contains scenes of violence, offensive language and morally ambiguous characters as well as sensitive topics of child abuse, addiction, and suicide"

K.A. Merikan (Author), Kirt Graves (Narrator)

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I am God's Dagger: Gay Romance

"“I know what’s been done to you, and I will see you avenged.” Gabriel. Broken. Lonely. Scarred. Delusional? Abaddon. Lord of Locusts. Master of the Bottomless Pit. Angel of Destruction and Vengeance… But is he real? After a psychotic episode in his childhood, Gabriel is left shattered and unable to join society. Trapped in the orphanage he grew up in, he is plagued by nightmares of events that never happened, events that left him scarred, flinching at touch and achingly lonely. Until one day he decides on a whim to not take his meds. Born from a cold womb in the ground, Abaddon awakens to the world with one goal: to destroy a cult that commits blasphemous crimes in his name. What he doesn’t expect is meeting a boy who survived one of their rituals. That is when God reveals Abaddon’s true purpose. He shall protect the boy from the vultures circling him and avenge his pain. He shall take Gabriel under his wing and provide all the love and affection the boy never got to experience. As they set out to hunt the monsters together, Gabriel entrusts his body and soul to his beautiful guardian angel, yet he can’t stop questioning whether Abaddon is real or just a creation of his touch-starved mind. Either way, vengeance has begun to cut through the cultists with its scythe, and there is no turning back, no matter how deep the rabbit hole goes. * Themes: opposites attract, hurt/comfort, size difference, angst, childhood trauma and abuse, mental health, self-harm, deception, mindf*ck, occult, gaslighting, revenge, torture, blasphemy, orphanage, cults Genre: Dark, thriller M/M romance Length: ~ 86,000 words (Standalone) WARNING: This book contains mature content that might be considered offensive."

K.A. Merikan (Author), Nathan Kelly (Narrator)

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Love Among Reptiles: M/M Romance

"He's a monster with sharp teeth, but I'm the snake he won't see coming.... Tormented. Lethal. Dead inside.There is only one reason Miguel became the bodyguard of a cartel boss’ son. So that one day, he can take revenge and put a bullet between his father’s eyes. To do that, he needs to keep his secrets close and play a double game with the outrageous Nero Moreno. And there has never been a more infuriating demon of a man than Nero. From his filed teeth and green hair to the gaudy gold necklaces and a diamond-studded AK-47, he is narco excess personified, and everything Miguel despises. The fact that Nero hits on Miguel every chance he gets is just another burden, because Miguel decided long ago that there is no room for love in his black heart. Slutty. Deadly. Lives to spite the world. No one refuses Nero Moreno. When he sets his sights on a man, sooner or later, his mark surrenders. With the endless buffet of flesh available to him, he shouldn’t care about rejection, but every time his insanely hot bodyguard gives him the cold shoulder, Nero is more set on seduction. He can see a spark of interest behind the dead black eyes. What does Miguel hide under his tattooed skin and expressionless face? Why won’t he let Nero touch him? Is his heart really made of stone, or does it hold a soul gentler than Miguel would like to admit? Nero will not rest until he finds out. When their goals collide, blood follows bullets, and it turns out nothing is as it seems. Gritty, dark, and intense, Love Among Reptiles is a dark enemies-to-lovers M/M romance standalone novel set in the world of cartels. Prepare for heated arguments, slow burn pining, and scorching hot, emotional, explicit scenes. This story contains scenes of violence, offensive language, and morally ambiguous characters, as well as sensitive topics of homophobia, suicide, child abuse, and SA."

K.A. Merikan (Author), Nathan Kelly (Narrator)

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Festive Fugitive: Murder and Mistletoe, Book 3

"I didn't expect my Christmas gift to be six-foot-two, a trained killer, and obsessed with me. Eli One bullet. One dead man. And now my wreck of a life is spiraling out of control. The bastard deserved it, but I'm just a regular guy. I botched the escape, and since I killed him while wearing a Santa costume, they call me the Festive Fugitive. Cute. Too bad I'll be spending Christmas behind bars or in a body bag. Then he appears. Cesar. My dark salvation. A trained killer who looks at me as if I'm his personal miracle. I killed his boss, yet he says I did him a favor. He wants to protect me, claim me, cage me in his arms, and God help me… I let him. Because what's falling for a monster when there's a manhunt hot on my tail and a target on my back? Cesar Taken as a child, I was turned into a loyal weapon. I killed, tortured, burned, and bled. I was respected and needed until I wasn't. When I lost an eye, my master pushed me aside, but as I waited for my 'one last job' so I could retire, Eli pulled the trigger. I never expected some half-starved, grief-drunk civilian in a Santa outfit to free me, but that's what happened. Eli is everything I am not—fragile, impulsive, untrained. And yet he killed the man I was bound to. He doesn't know it, but he owns me now. He thinks I'm his protector, that I've taken him under my wing. But it's more than that. He's mine. My obsession. My purpose. My beautiful, reckless mess of a man, and I'll burn the world before I let anyone take him from me. I guess Christmas came early for Eli this year. Festive Fugitive is a standalone M/M dark romance where a trained killer takes an amateur vigilante under his wing and gets increasingly obsessed with his new ward. (+Christmas crafts!) Themes and tropes include:Size difference, trained killer, snowed in, on the run, only one bed, hurt/comfort, revenge, loneliness, possessive hero, past trauma, brainwashing, dark humor, disabled hero, morally gray heroes, touch starved, free use (within the couple) For mature listeners."

K.A. Merikan (Author), Nick J. Russo, Simon Dornet (Narrator)

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Creep

"He’s my dream, my nightmare, my obsession. Creep. Weirdo. Stalker. Monster under the bed. Angel. Blond. Pillow Prince. Pisces. Creep They call me Creep and they’re not wrong. I crawl under people’s beds to feel close to them. Tonight, my pick is a pretty blond twink with pink lips and blue eyes. My living fantasy. I meant to enjoy his company in secret, but I can’t just lie there and listen when his boyfriend gets violent. So I crawl out. And I kill the bastard. Now Angel’s a witness to my crime, so… I take him. I’ve never had a lover. Hell, I’ve never even kissed anyone. I’m twisted. Ugly. Unlovable. But now that I’ve tasted Angel, I can’t turn back. I need to make him mine. Angel I survived a string of shitty exes but didn’t expect a monster in a leather jacket, with hair as black as night, to crawl out from under my bed and slaughter my abuser. I fear the worst when he abducts me to his creepy den… but he doesn’t hurt me. He’s too shy to even speak to me when I’m awake and watches from the shadows instead. It’s when I pretend to sleep that he comes closer. The game makes it all the sweeter for him. When he reaches for me, he’s careful but greedy, living out a fantasy he’s too ashamed to ask for. And I let him. Because I’m curious. Because it makes my pulse spike. Because I’m starting to want it too. ⚠⚠⚠⚠⚠⚠⚠⚠⚠⚠ “Creep” is a standalone, M/M dark romance where a lonely biker with an unusual kink abducts the object of his forbidden desire and finds salvation in the boy who should’ve run. This is a book for readers who crave a protective monster with a broken past, twisted obsession, and the kind of love that crawls out from under your bed and refuses to let go. If you’re drawn to morally gray men, emotional tension, and the thrill of surrendering to danger… this one’s for you. WARNING: This story contains scenes of violence, offensive language and morally ambiguous characters."

K.A. Merikan (Author), Zachary Zaba (Narrator)

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Ho Ho Homicidal Maniac: Murder and Mistletoe, Book 2

"'I love Christmas. So every year, I kill someone. As a treat.' Nico Have you ever fallen in love with a man as he was pointing his gun at you? Well, I have. Tiny problem? I'm in the middle of my murderous Christmas tradition, and he's a witness. But it's not his fault I got too excited and didn't check if I was alone. I can't just kill him because of my own blunder. Not when he has such dreamy green eyes filled with fear and pent-up rage. What I can do is take him with me for safekeeping while I work out how to make him understand that while my methods are cruel, my intentions are pure. Or how to make him fall for me. Whichever is first. Blake My eighteenth birthday was supposed to be the happiest day of my sheltered life. Finally, I would gain independence and inherit half my family fortune. Instead, I ended up kidnapped. I was about to get carved into pieces when… a Christmas miracle in the form of a beefy homicidal maniac saved me. Only now I'm trapped in his basement and getting love bombed by a psycho golden retriever. He eats turkey sandwiches for every breakfast, enjoys making festive ornaments out of human teeth, and lets his violent urges shine like a Christmas tree. I shouldn't find him hot. I shouldn't want to indulge his murderous tendencies. And I definitely shouldn't want him to be my first. But I'm being hunted and might just need a monster to keep me safe. (And he does actually make really good fruitcake.) Ho Ho Homicidal Maniac is a standalone M/M dark romance where a Christmas-obsessed serial killer falls for a poor little rich boy who also happens to be his favorite true crime podcaster. For mature listeners. Themes and tropes include: size difference, serial killer, mistrust, small town, loneliness, possessive hero, grumpy/sunshine, dark humor, abduction, first love, morally gray, sheltered rich boy, psychopath, black cat/golden retriever relationship, stockholm syndrome, betrayal, first time, opposites attract, stuck together, fish out of water, dark secret, dude in distress, wallflower."

K.A. Merikan (Author), Nick J. Russo, Simon Dornet (Narrator)

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Enemy: biker gay romance

"Don’t bring a kiss to a knife fight. Roadkill. Violent. Brash. Obsessive. In the closet. Clyde. Cunning. Ruthless. Biker royalty. Trapped on the other side of the same closet. Roadkill. I’ve hated Clyde Turner since the moment I laid eyes on him. I hate him for existing, for tempting me, for being everything I can’t have. Ice-blue eyes, a cocky smirk that makes my fists itch, a damn Hell’s Butchers MC prince. I want him violently, but since I can’t have him, I will destroy him. I killed his f*cking brother, and he’s next. When a fire traps us together, death feels inevitable. With no way out and nothing left to lose, we trade confessions like poison-laced promises. I say I wish I’d f*cked him. Just to break him. Just to see disgust twist his perfect face. His reply is like a bullet. “I would have let you…” Clyde. I should’ve burned to death in that fire, because now my worst nightmare has come true. Roadkill knows. He knows the secret I’ve spent years burying beneath blood, alcohol, and loyalty to my club. I have to kill him. There’s no other way. But a knife fight leads to kisses and a deal struck in the dark. We’ll keep it quiet. No one needs to know. Enemies with benefits, nothing more. A stolen moment here, a touch there, with no strings and no club betrayal. Until one of us is dead, I’ll let myself fall into his bed, and in the meanwhile, I’ll keep looking for the bastard who killed my brother. The aftermath. Nothing stays buried forever. Not secrets, not sins, and certainly not feelings. What starts as a forbidden tryst becomes something deeper. No matter how far we run, the shadows of our clubs and the weight of our hatred threaten to destroy us. Some things you can’t come back from. But that doesn’t stop us from one last kiss. And then, just one more."

K.A. Merikan (Author), Zachary Zaba (Narrator)

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The Shadow Prince's Ruin: Dark Companions, Book 2

"'Give me your shadow, and my body is yours.' An elven prince shouldn't be working at Best Burgers Bonanza. Yet here I am, banished to the human realm for a lifetime of toil and misery. I guess that's what I get for being a traitor and the shortest elf at the Nocturne Court, with a shadow no darker than a tea stain. I'm stuck with no scheme up my sleeve when destiny brings me face to face with the answer to all my troubles. Hawk. A dangerous human on the run from prison, so tall that my neck hurts when I meet his gaze. His shadow is dark as death, and it will be mine if only I can force him to marry me. What I don't expect though, is the price for his exquisite power. He wants my body. I've never been an object of anyone's desire, but I will do whatever it takes to make him my Dark Companion. When our illicit deal shatters the ice around my heart, keeping Hawk at arm's length becomes impossible. Our bond is supposed to be one of convenience. He's crude, violent, reckless, and wants to devour me in the filthiest ways. He's everything I shouldn't want. I chose him to be my salvation, but he might just prove to be my downfall. The Shadow Prince's Ruin is a standalone, scorching hot, dark M/M fantasy romance filled with dark humor, but also violence, peril, jealousy, and angst. The book is a darkly romantic escape into the shadows where love and destiny collide. Find out if the beast of a human can melt the ice prince's heart. For mature listeners."

K.A. Merikan (Author), Jamie Treselyan, John Hartley (Narrator)

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Just Here for the Pain: Gay Rockstar Romance

"Whips and chains - not optional Sid. Drummer for The Underdogs. Secretly yearning for pain and submission. Asher. AKA Stan. Stalker. More than meets the eye. It’s hard to find good hookups while on tour. Sid wants pain, humiliation, and the kind of sex that isn’t easy to get from one-night stands. So for now, he’s given up, settled for an online Dom to get his rocks off, and focused on his band instead. The Underdogs are getting increasingly popular, but there is one fan who has followed Sid since before he even joined the band, and he’s driving Sid mad! Rich, spoiled hipster brat looking for the bad boy experience. If he knew what Sid was really into, he would run for the hills. Asher is convinced that Sid is The One, his One True Love, his endgame. Years ago, Asher lost his virginity to Sid, and from that moment on, he knew it was meant to be. They had a spark, that honest connection that couldn’t be faked. The members of Sid’s band call him a stalker, but all he wants is to offer Sid his love. When Sid finally chokes out what he wants, Asher is more than ready to unleash it on him. But the last time Sid was out as gay and submissive, he got badly burnt when his former band kicked him out, and the doors to many opportunities slammed in his face. Asher wants the whole world to know that he’s dating Sid. Problem is, Sid would much rather keep the relationship as pain-with-benefits. *** Themes: rock band, alternative lifestyles, tattoos, BDSM, commitment, family issues, coming out, life on tour, friends with benefits become something more, first love, stalking, fanboy Genre: Contemporary M/M Rockstar Romance Length: ~90,000 words (Can be read as standalone, HEA)"

K.A. Merikan (Author), Tyler Kent (Narrator)

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