"A compelling, vulnerable and raw journey to acceptance of bereavement and the discovery of a dark unspoken secret."
The loss of a loved one is one of the hardest experiences we go through. Having a bereavement due to suicide adds a whole additional layer of struggle - regardless of the circumstances it often feels sudden and there’s a sense of a potential that just vanishes. In The Confession, Maike Mullenders shares that life with her father was difficult, “he left me a complicated legacy which I spent years trying to wade through”, detailing two previous failed suicide attempts when she was a child and teenager before receiving the devastating news that her father had taken his own life when she was 21. Part of the note he left behind was a confession of multiple things including being “physically inappropriate” with his daughter. With no recollection of this, Maike is left in even greater turmoil, forced to come to terms not only with the loss of a parent but with a shocking revelation about her past and with questions that could never be answered.
With honesty and vulnerability, posing questions to herself and the reader as she goes, Maike shares her story with us from the beginning. From a complicated family dynamic to her parents relationship and how this model impacted her behaviour and connection to others in early adulthood. I’ve used “shared” more than once in talking about this book intentionally, as Maike tells her story we are invited right into it, even the places where nothing but uncertainty and confusion lie. As you can imagine this isn’t a light-hearted read but Maike’s honesty and growth throughout is compelling and by the end, when she has managed to find solace in her yoga practice and meditations there is a feeling of hope. In Maike’s words, “Sharing our humanness is the most incredible gift we can give ourselves and those around us”, and I’d like to end by thanking her for having the strength to share this gift with us.
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Maike Mullenders was just twenty-one when police broke the devastating news her father had taken his own life. Not only that, but he also left behind a handwritten confession suggesting that he had been ‘physically inappropriate with my daughter’.
Maike was painfully aware of her father’s troubled life, but this came as a complete shock – she loved him and had no conscious memory of any sexual abuse. Thrown into personal turmoil, and questioning her identity and place in the world, she spent the next twenty years trying to uncover the truth.
Had he broken her trust in the worst way imaginable? Was it a symptom of his mental anguish? Or had he constructed a story to make her hate him so her loss might be more manageable?
Through deeply personal counselling sessions, extensive research, yoga
and meditation she explored the darkest reaches of her subconscious and unearthed ‘memories’ long buried, yet emerged with an ‘answer’ that enabled her to live again, free from the agonising burden of The Confession.
This is Maike’s remarkable journey to hope and peace after her father’s chilling final message pushed her to the brink of insanity
The Confession A Journey to Acceptance features in the following genres: Biographies & Autobiographies, True stories of survival of abuse and injustice, Child abuse, Biography, Literature and Literary studies, True stories: general, Society and Social Sciences, Society and culture: general, Social and ethical issues, Violence and abuse in society
The Confession A Journey to Acceptance is available in Paperback
The Confession A Journey to Acceptance was written by Maike Mullenders, Douglas Wight and published by Mirror Books
The Confession A Journey to Acceptance has 288 pages
£8.99