I am a big fan of this author. She tackles gritty, sensitive issues in a thrilling manner. This one is about post-natal depression which it displays in its worst form. Jessica and Matthew are happy, young and in love. Their pregnancy is unexpected, a bit earlier than planned but still welcomed. Sadly the birth is a Caesarean and Jessica feels distant from her daughter. She then can’t breast feed and feels ill. Everyone else is euphoric. Eventually she gets medical help and things do improve. Then suddenly she begins to deteriorate. This has now gone on for a year and then, of course, the crisis comes. A page-turner, difficult to put down, brilliantly written in an accessible style and language. We have the story itself and also a diary, so sad. I cannot speak too highly of this book. ~Sarah Broadhurst
The unputdownable new novel from bestseller Amanda Prowse. Jessica has just had the wedding of her dreams, and now she's setting up a new home with her lawyer husband Matthew. Even better - they are expecting a child. As they paint the nursery and shop for babygros, she plans for the joy that motherhood will bring. But Jessica's experience is far from joyous. Why isn't she transformed by maternal feelings? Where is the all-consuming love she's supposed to feel for her child? No-one told her that being a mum was so lonely and terrifying. No-one told her you don't always love your baby. Perhaps it's best if Jessica keeps that dark secret to herself for now...
Amanda Prowse was a management consultant for ten years before realising that she was born to write. She is also the author of Poppy Day (Head of Zeus, 2012). She lives in the West Country with her husband Simeon, a soldier, and their two sons.
